Went to the Drs yesterday, she was great, she understood why I hadn't used the anti-depressants, but still stuck by her guns that it was PND not PMT, but she was pleased that I was trying to deal with it myself.
Then I came across these about 5 minutes ago from one of the other parenting blogs I follow:
http://www.pregnancybaby411.com/2011/02/postpartum-anxiety.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+HipChicksGuideToPmsPregnancyAndBabies+%28Hip+Chick%E2%80%99s+Guide+to+PMS%2C+Pregnancy%2C+and+Babies%29
and
http://www.babybluesconnection.org/about_ppd/symptoms.htm
Think I have a mild form of PND and a big form of Post Natal Anxiety. The anxiety one is awful, I'd lay in bed on a night and I would have OH snoring to my left, T snoring to my right and I could hear The Daughter giggling on the phone to her friends in her room, and I'd smile, I'd be so happy and content and consider how lucky I was...for about 2 minutes, then starting small in the back of my head was the doomed thoughts, which no matter how hard I tried I couldn't stop from coming to the forefront of my mind, usually along the lines of 'Yep but you might die, and what would they all do, T wouldn't have a mother!' or ' what would you do if one of them died in the next year?'
Then I would silently cry for about 10 minutes, determined to make the most of every precious moment I have with each of them (admittedly not a bad outcome) but then I couldn't sleep, I'd go as far as working out that in the worst case scenario of one of them dying, how I'd cope, how the remaining 2 would cope etc etc. It was sheer horror.
It still creeps up on me, but not as often now thank goodness.
I had a panic attack on the way back from a friends house, in the car, icy roads, OH was driving and T was in the back, I was determined we were going to crash. I couldn't breathe, but at the same time I couldn't talk about it because I felt I was likely to jinx myself.
The mind is a cruel, cruel thing when it wants to be.
Anyways onto a brighter note...Toys!
I've never sat and seriously considered toys so much since T was born.
He started with no toys, then he got a play gym, which he wasn't hugely interested in as he couldn't reach the dangly things. Then his doughnut, which he mostly just lounges in, he doesn't play with what's on the sides.
Then I decided he needed stimualtion during 'Tummy Time' (an hour a day, don't forget!) so went and bought a huuuuuuuuuge play mat for him and some textile toys, a dragonfly which he loves, it crinkles and squeaks etc.
But what about when he's not having 'Tummy Time'?
So the OH yesterday went and bought a play seat thingy (how good are my descriptions!) it's like a walker, he hangs in it and the seat spins round so he can play with various toys in a 360 degree range. He loves it, he likes being bolt upright or on his tummy/back. Nothing in between.
Lastly car seats.
With the Maxi Cosi ones that come with the travel systems, babies look like they are growing out of them after 4/5 months as their legs start hanging over the edge.
I've looked this up, and that's fine, they can stay in them no matter how long they get until they reach the weight stated on the car seat. It's best to keep them in rear facing seats for as long as possible or until their head is no longer supported/secured properly.
Hope this blog helps someone!!
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