Well I've shamefully neglected my blog since my last blog/rant.
After my last blog I realised that I'd hit some serious negative spiral, and put it down to being PMS. I believe the following day after that blog was written, I lost my rag, whilst on my own, for no reason whatsoever. I could have easily trashed my house, that was how much rage overwhelmed me.
So after a talk with the OH he told me to have a look and see what else my anti-depressants could be used for, ie PMS, so I looked it up and they were used to treat something called PMDD. I didn't know what that was, so I looked it up...then cried with relief, there was a name for how I'd been feeling.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Premenstrual_dysphoric_disorder
I showed the link to my OH and he too was pleased that we'd found out I wasn't just a crazy lady.
PMDD causes problems between familes, I feel constantly battered by other people and I fill with rage and need to escape. My OH felt like he couldn't say anything to me, The Daughter got upset that I kept snapping at her. It's hard, but I genuinely can't control how I feel, so I started walking as soon as I felt overwhelmed....I've never walked so much!
On facebook I found a PMDD support group, and they are fab, everyone supports everyone else through their struggle. I feel so much less alone because of the group, and in a way I feel very lucky, reading some of the other girls accounts, I'm a mild case.
I've attached a link to one of the groups creators blogs, she describes perfectly how I felt last month, and am starting to feel again this month.
http://meetmypmdd.blogspot.com/2011/04/pmdd-crisis-guide-mental-realm-of-pmdd.html
But I'm hoping that now that I have all this information and support, that as a family we can work through this and that we can make it as normal a week as possible. It'll take some time though.
Anyways on a chirpier note, we now have chickens!
We'd pondered it for a while, and decided to go ahead with it.
So on Friday 6 chickens turned up, Korma, Tikka (originally Twit and Twat, but not good names with a baby around!) Martha, Georgie, Penny and Monkey.
At first I was petrified of them thinking that it was the worst ever idea we had. But by Sunday I was feeding them out of my hand.
Then the OH called me yesterday and said that he thought our chickens were lonely, so last night we gained 9 teeny tiny fluffy lickle chickens (photos to be added when they brave the outside world!)
They're still to be named!
I love the chickens though, they have their own personalities and I'm hoping the 9 babies develop theirs soon too!
On the T front, he's extremely mobile now, he can drag himself around the floor, not too far from crawling.
We had a fab day out the other week, which involved 25 minutes of this:
However last week the smiles disappeared and were replaced by the grumpiest, fussiest baby in the land. I believe now that he had a tummy bug, and because of the heat over the weekend, he keeps coming out in rashes which I calmly (on the outside anyways) assume are heat rashes.
But he slowly seems to be returning back to normal.
So I will try and maintain my blog this week, in an effort to control the PMDD, so I can take any rage out on my keyboard and not my family!
So fingers crossed for myself!
I will update on the chickens as a regular thing once I get back into the swing of things again!
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