February 1st

I've been quiet recently. I've had a lot going on. T and I have been poorly and although we're almost fully recovered I'm having some other issues, which I'm going to ramble about!

I've blogged before about panic attacks I've had before doing new things. They're to be expected in a way.

When I started my role as a volunteer in the school I was surprisingly fine. 

Then after the Christmas break things started to go a bit down hill. So my first Monday back I was violently sick once as we were getting ready for school, my other end was threatening action. I was due into school but decided I'd just take T to nursery (at the same school) and come home again. I popped some Imodium and set off. By the time I got to school I felt fine, decided to risk my 3 hours. For the rest of the day I was fine.

Tuesday morning, dodgy tummy, again threatening other end action. Same action plan again, same outcome. I was fine. Wednesday came, (I do 3 hours on a Monday and Tuesday morning) I was fine. Fine the rest of the week. Monday morning, dodgy bum, Tuesday morning dodgy bum! 

After the third week of this happening I decided I must be stressed about going to school placement. But I'm not. I don't stay awake all night tossing and turning and thinking of reasons not to go, I adore it! 

With my cold I've had this week I've had weird tingling and tightenings in my left cheek. The first time it tightened it felt like the side of my mouth was going drop so I panicked about a stroke. The feeling went within seconds and I was fine. Since then my face has been tightening and tingling all the live long day. Starting about an hour after I get up getting steadily stronger and stronger until I go to bed. It doesn't hurt, well only every now and then. Just feels like my face is itchy/pins and needley. Mostly along my left cheekbone, hops across to my lips as nose quite often and sometimes as far up  as my eye. I've had tingly teeth, they've been a bit sensitive, but no problems eating or drinking. 

I went to the Drs yesterday and she gave me a week of antibiotics. She was giving me them for a sinus infection, but if it wasn't better in the week I needed to go back and see her as it could be a problem with a nerve. 

So I hit google when I got home (don't judge me you've done it!)

I've either got a brain tumour, cancer, TMJ or anxiety. 

So let's focus on the sensible 2; TMJ and anxiety. I have hypermobility and TMJ goes hand in hand with that. Also my dodgy bum seems to tell me I have anxiety. 

So my POA (plan of action) is:

1) Go to see a Biomechanics specialist. My hypermobility has been recognised but I've not had a full body assessment. Just the physio pointing out week on week when he finds something new. 

2) Book in the dentists on an off chance that it's tooth related. 

3) Try to find out what's causing my anxiety. This is the hardest. I don't feel mentally stressed or anxious about anything so why is my body potentially tell me otherwise?!

4) Hopefully the antibiotics work and it was just a sinus infection. Even so, steps 1,2 and 3 need to be followed!

So really I'm just sounding this all out so I can stop running it all over in my head. But if anyone has experiences of face tingling, tightness, TMJ, anxiety, how to find out what's stressing you when you're not stressed, or can just give me a cuddle that would be marvellous, ta.